How I Realized Self Love Was Never Going to Be Enough
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“For an overachiever like myself, letting go of that final piece was the hardest. But even as I uttered the words, “I’d rather be alone and happy than in a house full of people and feel lonely,” I knew there’d be lonely days ahead. I just prayed that self love could fill my cup.”
After years of numbness, I thought I had finally joined a secret society of awakened individuals — the ones that had figured out how to love themselves. It was not too long before my 40th year in this Universe, when I began to notice all the ways the world teaches us to be unsatisfied with ourselves.
I recognized that I had spent years in negative self-talk and perfectionism. A typical mental bash session would include an inventory of all my short-comings in the areas of domestication, wifely-duties and mom-guilt.
But, there was a moment (over two years ago) when I had finally had enough. I made a commitment to fall in love with myself. After all, I realized that if I couldn’t love myself, who could? I hoped this love would be enough for me — that…